I have found my self in the same position since 2009.. My son passed away in 2000 . Ilived in a state of shock for 9 years... Only to find myself waking up to the reality of his death causing me to be diag with PTSD.. Since 2009 I have realized I lost my son, harrassed by my new landlord , after leaving my relationship and getting a RO finding myself with no electricity/hotwater, everynight I went home from work to find another working electrical outlet.., I was harrassed all day at work by my employer and finally terminated me in Oct 2009, moved from apt of horror, collected unemployment while trying to get it together, Filed a discrimination against my employer and now it Aug of 2011 I sit here with no income and not paying my rent for 3 months since July 9, 2011 after the extensions were cut so quickly... I found myself digging into tthe depth of my soul to get thru this period in my life. and weeded out the negative energies and people in my life.. I also have done a lot of metaphysical research and did find the planet Saturn was making sweep into my life to give me the stregnth and courage to see and change the way in which I allowed myself to become a victim of circumstances.. To be able to see with clarity and trust in myself by paying attention to what is going on around me. "I have learned a great deal from this experience and feel as though I am starting to come out of it. I have fought for everything and sseee things are starting to move forward.. I will be starting a program WIT Woman In Transition at /NSCC... Without Jesus I would not be able to have the stregnth or corauge I havve had ... During the darkest moments of my life I got down for the first time on my knees and prayed to Jesus because I was afraid I would not come out of the darkest time of my life... During those periods I prayed to him to walk with me for I could no long walk alone.... KEEP THE FAITH AND BELIEVE YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND YOU WILL GET THRU THIS . My son died in my arms at the age of 25, he was a professional boxer. after his 1st 10 round fight televised on ESPN Oct 20, 2000 he lapsd into a coma after I kissed him on the cheek... Prior to the match he had to answer several question and one of them was " WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST. " HIS ANSWER: GOD AND MY FAMILY, WHEN ASKED 'WHY' HE WROTE " BECAUSE THEY NEVER LET ME DOWN" ' ... Please keep the faith and trust inyourself you will be fine.. I will pray to the Blessed Mother and Jesus, while lighting a white candle for you . GodBless!
